Just like Arjuna is taking instruction from Krsna. He is thinking, "Whether I shall fight or not fight?" So you become thoughtful. That's very nice. But don't be thoughtful without accepting a spiritual master. That thoughtfulness will not help you, because you are conditioned. You are, you have got the four kinds of defects. Simply by becoming philosopher, speculator, will not help you. Athapi te deva ciram vicinvan [SB 10.14.29]. You cannot understand God for millions and millions [years] of thinking. No, it is not possible.
Lecture on Srimad-Bhagavatam 1.5.12-13, New Vrindaban, June 11, 1969