I am not indifferent towards your present situation. But the only way I see that I can help you is to help strengthen your faith in Krishna. Krishna is the Supreme Mystic. He can do anything He wishes. If we want to draw His attention, then we must be prepared to remain tolerant, humble and confident in His protection and patient.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 5, Pg 21, 2nd paragraph.
Look deep within and try to fix yourself on fulfilling just one of Krishna's desires. Everything else, including the fulfillment of all other desires, will fall into place when you fix your mind on doing something that's pleasing to Krishna. Of course, this requires faith and surrender. I pray that Krishna will help you with both.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 5, Pg 17, 2nd paragraph.
There are so many standard, Krishna concious answers for those who are suffering. But usually relief will come, not from the exact answers themselves, but from the motive behind the answer. Everyone wants to feel cared for. It is the innate desire of the soul.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 5, Pg 15, 3rd paragraph
Faith cannot be legislated, even by scriptural injunctions. It can only arise by hearing, seeing, and associating with those who have faith in pure devotional service.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 5, Pg 13, 1st paragraph.
The way I see it, the counselors should be armed with guru-tattva, and should speak from that platform, with the conviction that the best preparation for anyone aspiring for initiation is to intensely and sincerely pray to the Lord within to give them the shelter of Sri Guru. Such prayers are a prerequisite for anyone aspiring to obtain shelter from an instructing and/or initiating spiritual master.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 90, last paragraph.
There are many children who never saw a gurukula, but who are still strong in their desire to be Krishna concious. Conversely, there are many children who were raised in gurukula, but their experiences were such that they rejected Krishna conciousness as they grew older. Of course, the gurukulas remaining today have learned a lot from the mistakes of the past. But one thing that has also been learned is that it is the duty of the parents to teach Krishna conciousness to their children by their own example. In the long run, that will bear the most positive impact upon their children, whether they grow up in gurukulas or in slaughtehouse schools.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 95, 2nd paragraph.
I am sorry to hear that you have many problems. But then again, it is not unusual for anyone to have many problems in this material world. As I understand, there will always be problems, and there is no escaping that factor. Our only means for any genuine escape is to turn to Krishna with our hands in the air and call out His name.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 107, 2nd paragraph.
As you know by now, spiritual life is not a mechanical process. We do not advance just by "punching the time clock" to report for devotional service. Krishna conciousness is a way of life, from morning to night, and even while we sleep. It's true that we may fix a time for Krishna conciousness, but we must use that designated time to its full potential. It is a time to establish the right motive for everything that we do, and to pray for strength to follow that motive.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 108, 2nd paragraph.
Chanting should be performed with some feeling. Whether the emotion is hankering for Krishna, remorse, repentance, eagerness to chant more attentively, remembrance of our favorite pastime, or whatever, when there is some feeling, our chanting becomes less mechanical and more spontaneous. Try to capture these moments of chanting with feeling, and take note of what you were thinking about when the feeling came to you. Repeat your chanting in the same way and gradually the feeling will become more natural, and along with that will come a more natural desire to increase your chanting.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 116, last paragraph.
I was speaking to one brahmachari. He was asking me how to have a greater sense of the mission. I was explaining to him the principle of gratitude. The deeper the spiritual experience we get from serving and chanting, the deeper our gratitude becomes, and with that, the desire to reciprocate by our service with those who are inspiring us to chant. We must always look to deepen this experience, and that happens by serving those who help us to increase our faith in holy name. When that is the focus, then everything else that we do, including our work and other duties, is properly connected.
Collected Letters to Friends and disciples Vol 4, Pg 118, last paragraph.